The only thing it brings constantly into your mind is to end it now. But that is not the best option for your life. Greater things are ahead of you if only you can see beyond your present predicaments. DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE!!!

“I want to commit suicide” a friend said.

I was opportune to encourage her to get out of the mess. Her voice changed and she said at least your life is perfect. Did you say perfect? Perfect indeed! I giggled.

A few months ago, I thought everything had finished, I considered ending it and it seemed I had come to the end where a miracle couldn’t happen anymore. I had a bad business and I kept on entangling myself with the worst business decisions until there was no way anymore.

I couldn’t do anything except lie in a spot and cry. It was from one crisis to another crisis. I was the definition of failure, shame, embarrassment and reproach. Help was far away. My cousin that tried to help got his fingers burnt. It was deeper than I thought, deeper than anyone thought. To top it all, my health started failing me with a constant blood pressure in the range of 250/210.

My husband would beg me that I shouldn’t die and he will receive some of the calls for me. He would constantly tell me God loves me and that my death would just cause more problems to the family. It went on and on, in tears upon tears and screams. I could not pray, I could not sing, I could not laugh, I could not attend to clients. I began to lose more and more money and I couldn’t explain how I was feeling.

On this fateful day, my dad sent me a message in the middle of the night. He said. “Tough times don’t last, tough people do. We love you and we believe you will rise and make us proud again. I cried my heart out, saying I wish I was tough, I wish I had the strength to get up, I wish I could work, I wish I could get up. It was a turning point. I didn’t want to die anymore.

The prayers and prophecies that didn’t make sense to me started lifting my spirit little by little but my health wouldn’t improve. My spirit was a little willing but I couldn’t go on. Some didn’t give me a chance but some stood by me. A cousin took a loan to offset a major loan, another sold his car to give me stability, another gave my little step support, a lot of calls, some debts were written off. How many can I count?

My life isn’t perfect, I have got some mess in my life that I’m trying clear but I won’t let my problems push me to suicide.

In all, I have learnt that, when it all seems like it’s over, help is close. Death is never the solution. The solution might not be sudden but slowly you will get there.

Death isn’t the answer to shame and reproach. Strength is the answer.

Suicide is not the best option to end a problem. In fact after you have committed it, it creates more problems for the love ones. Never allow the thought of suicide to find a way into heart. It weakens your inner strength to fight against whatever you are going through in life. It renders you inactive and person of no value again. The only thing it brings constantly into your mind is to end it now. But that is not the best option for your life. Greater things are ahead of you if only you can see beyond your present predicaments. DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE!!!




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